::: i aint worth a single cent :::

These are the words I cannot say
But they come from the heart
Despite all the arguments
I've liked you from the start

I like the way your mind works
The way you're so unique
And when I'm in my darkest hour
I long to hear you speak

I like the way you walk
The way you slightly smile
And when your move close to me
You cause my heart to go wild

I like the ways you're different
I like those mysterious eyes
Actually I like everything
Even what's inside

I long for you to hold me
To feel your lips on mine
I know it isn't work yet
We need a little more time

But these are all the things
I guess I cannot yet say
Like how I somehow manage
To think of you all day

Yes I'm scared you'll hurt me
Just break me and leave
I don't want to have to worry
I don't want to be deceived

How all this can work
I'll guess we'll never know
But don't turn your back on me yet
I'm not quite ready for you to go

I'm sorry for writing this
But its all I can do
It the only way for me
To say I love you

For these are the words
I just cannot say
But things will be different
One day...

Wednesday, September 28, 2005
+ Listen +

There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words. We try to communicate the idea in other words. We say take care or don't drive too fast?

We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.

Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments, which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says i love you, even though the words might be saying something very different.

We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even harshly. We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness.

Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language.

The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. We hear the words, but we don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. We do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry.

People talking without speaking; people hearing without listening; people writing songs that voices never shared, because no one dared disturb the sound of silence...

We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realise.

There are many times I tried to listen but external attributes are too overwhelming which make me fail to hear you. I'm sorry. But I will try.

Thoughts of the day
I know there's something missing in my heart
Making me so hard to breathe
But life goes on as it never ends
Keep thinking times will never change
But we are moving and we can't slow down
The memories are playing like a film without sound in my mind
Keep thinking about the past,
When I didn't know much about love
And all the love I use to hide
Thinking about every single rule I tried to break
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Will I think about tomorrow like I think about now?
Can I survive out there?
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?

I guess the thought of these would never end.
Trying to find my way home

Chao B
There isn't any reason for me to stop loving you
All I want is you, you and only you.

I love your concern
I love you for all your caring way
For all the loving things you do
I love you because your are special
And meant the world to me
Thanks for being there for me.
Miss ya a lot. Take care of youself kay!
Love you!

My Com
Computer down, no maple,
no music, no games,
no anime, no movie,
no notes, no Stories,
NO ENTERTAINMENT!!!!

Stupid Lighting! Stupid Storm!
I'm Bored!

imnothingtoyou.6:05 PM

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Monday, September 26, 2005
+ untitled: jus another entry +

Why things always happen the way that oppose our will. Why do people fall down and never wanna stand up again. How come no one come to my rescue when I really need one.

Feeling down and moody, even though I was supposes to be happy because it was my birthday, I wasn't feeling great. Everything happens to demoralise me. Terribly sad!

Moreover I was pretty sick the last few days, have been coughing and sneezing all day long. Keep coughing, coughing like no body business, felt like my lung wanna escape from my body. I know a lot of ppl care about my health, but I just dun feel like visiting the clinic. Hai I think I will recover in a few days ba.

Have been thinking a lot this few days, thinking about what I really want in my life. Was super lazy. Wanna study but didn't, all I did was slacking and playing all day long, watching shows after shows. There is just so much to do this week; the thoughts of it just stressed me out.

Life is really meaningless to me at the current moment. Sometime I though I really have aims, but sometime I think those aren't really motivating me. Hmm….

Finally met dear on Friday, was so happy and suddenly felt so blissful when I am in his arms. He lighten me up, when I'm with him there is bizarre feeling that I cannot describe. But this moment didn't last long. He book in le. Hmm…

Shall continue my TV session! tata

imnothingtoyou.12:15 AM

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Friday, September 23, 2005
+ I'm waiting for you +

Every minute of everyday I spend thinking of you
hoping and wondering if you miss me too
so long it's been since I've seen your face
or felt the bliss of your warm embrace

I wonder if you're ok and what you're doing
and how much longer I must wait for your kiss
each night I dream I'm back in your arms
lost in your love protected from harm
in my realm of dreams all is right
we remain together one more heavenly night
the world is unique with a colorful fire
for it knows the passion of our unspoken desire
here we'll remain lingering in our love
drifting with pleasure in the heavens above

Then I awaken

Everything becomes a blur
My sight turns black and white
the lost feeling came

a teardrop drips down my eye
and all I learn to hold
is the pain as I cry

nothing is perfect, everythings wrong
my world is bleak tainted with sorrow
I cant wait till the day when you came back
then all this pain can be put in the past
until then i'll lay here dreaming of you

imnothingtoyou.8:51 AM

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
+ Happy Birthday 2 ME!!!!! +

For my birthday there's little that I want:

Bags to suit my clothing,
Shoes to walk me to my future,
Beautiful earings shining ever so bright,
Something to scare away every fright.
A watch with diamonds to show class,
A bunch of roses made of glass.
These mutual things may bring me slight happiness but,
If these are what I want then I lied.
Because on my list there's one thing that remains at the top,
It will remain and never to drop.
I can hold it and feel it holding me,
I can kiss it for you all to see.
You are the only thing I want for my birthday this year!

Laying on my bed,
On my birthday night.
Wishing you were here that day.
Because you would have bought in even more light.
My birthday was the best,
The only person missing,
Was you.
I wished you were here.

imnothingtoyou.12:58 AM

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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
+ "Bizarre Love Triangle" +

"Bizarre Love Triangle"

Every time i think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
While every day my confusion grows
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You'll say the words that I can't say

imnothingtoyou.10:46 PM

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Wednesday, August 31, 2005
+ Lousy day +

I just had a fight with my mum a few moments ago. She complain that I am going home later and later.
What's wrong with drinking? What's wrong with hanging out late?

You got no rights to stop me from doing the things I want to do.

Yar! You pay for my everything!!! That doesn't give u the rights to control my life. Fine!!! I shall earn my own allowance or maybe my own living.

Yar, I am ignorant to the fact that she was merely worried of my safely but I want a life.
I wasted so much good time in the past and I dun wan to regret again.

She doesn't understand mi, she doesn't know my wants. I have my social life. I have different cliques.

I hate this world with the bureaucratic system.

If u think I am not socially responsible to myself then you are wrong. I know what I m doing. I study when I need to and have fun at the same time.

You dun understand my age. You dun even want to know my position, my feeling and my thoughts. You don't even wan to listen to me. You don't understand. You just don't understand.

Don't expect mi to be like my sisters. I am not them and I can never be them. If you are not happy with that fact, u can always disown me. Don't compare me with others kids I am not them, we are brought up differently with different background and up-bringing. I hate being compared with.

I hate you. I really hate it when u categorise my friends as bad company. I really hate it when you assume everything while I tried to tell you the truth that is happening. You never want to listen.

I was so hurt! How I wish you could understand. How I wish you could be more open to all the issue happening. You need to change too. I know I don't give you the trust you wanted. But that's me. Take it or leave it.

I will leave when I am ready and have the financial support. I won't want to trouble you further.

imnothingtoyou.12:42 AM

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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
+ similar +

I found a person that resembles me so much that I couldn't believe it. In terms of mentality, and character, experience, we are so much alike. Although I dun know that person but through his blog I came to know more about myself. Continue tomolo… cya

imnothingtoyou.3:46 AM

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ABOUT.
21th Sep 1985
20
xnnocent@gmail.com

my LOVES.
#1loves - Bao Bao
#2loves - Cakes
#3loves - Chocolates
#4loves - Music ::: MTV
#5loves - MapleSea ::: ign:nnocent, kapuzz, kapuu

LOVES for Anime.
#1Ho0ked - Tsubasa Chronicle
#2Ho0ked - Bleach
#3Ho0ked - Yakitate Japan
#4Ho0ked - MaRChen Awakens Romance
#5Ho0ked - The Law of Ueki
#6Ho0ked - Naruto(common

WANTINGS.
#1wish - New Phone
#2wish - New Bag
#3wish - New Clothes
#4wish - Shoes from Lacoste
#5wish - New Hair colour